And isn’t that a miracle? To go to bed one person and to wake up another! And everybody, knowing you petrifying  from this metamorphosis! Parents lay hands to your forehead, whether you ill?” Friends are concerned,  with such melancholy” and suggest to drink! Darling (ha – ha!) looks in eyes with anxiety every minute, saying in the end that you have found another one!

And only you are quiet and amusing in this routine world which has wallowed in inertia of stereotypes, prejudices and bias! He becomes the best only for you, he is forged for you, by your unique scenario!


It’s in your nature to destroy yourself!


I have pledged to change to myself! I am firm in the intention and no temptations will lead me astray! I mentally forgive all and I apologize to those whom have offended. I am positively tuned, I smile, my soul exults! Really everything is so simple? My days pass in a great mood!


But there are no cardinal changes. There is a boredom and disappointment again!


And suddenly there my internal double appears against who I have won so triumphantly and who didn’t appear  within this kind week!

He  softly takes me away from a long and right way, convincingly inviting to a short and habitual way of my trivial life full of the repeating mistakes!

My positive thoughts are replaced by negative: I condemn all, I envy, I absorb movies full of violence and horror! The habitual fear and concern appear in me again.

Whether I will be able to follow a way true again? Who knows?



Vanity! It is motivation which moved history it is unknown where in progress or regress! Alexander the Great, Caesar, Napoleon – all of them movable by this passion have brought to society both positive and negative!

But there were persons above this human sin! Leo Tolstoy, the Writer Jean Paul Sartre, the winner of 1964, has also refused an award for the sake of the beliefs. Tolstoy considered that it’s this prize connected with money and money he thought was the real reason of all evil!



Sartre has answered all questions which were set asked him about it quite accurately that in a present situation the Nobel Prize in practice represents the award intended for writers of the West or “rebels” from the East. Sartre considered that the award is got only by certain grades of writers, those talented and worthy awards the writers who aren’t suitable under a grade, will never get awards.


However the behavior of the Russian mathematician Grigory Perelman was the real sneer at vanity. In 1991  the award to “The young mathematician” of the St. Petersburg mathematical society for work of “Alexandrov’s space with the curvature limited from below” .


In 1996 the Award of the European mathematical society for young mathematicians , but he has refused to receive it.

In 2006 to Grigori Perelman for the solution of a hypothesis of Poincare the international award “Medal Fildsa” is awarded (an official formulation at rewarding: “For a contribution to geometry and his revolutionary ideas to studying of geometrical and analytical structure of a flow of Ricci”), however he has refused also her [35].

In March, 2010 the Clay Mathematics Institute has awarded to Grigori Perelman with one million US dollars for the proof of a hypothesis of Poincare that became the winning of the award first in the history for the solution of one of Problems of the millennium. In June, 2010 Perelman has ignored a mathematical conference in Paris at which delivery of “An award of the millennium” for the proof of a hypothesis of Poincare was supposed, and on July 1, 2010 has  announced the refusal of an award, having motivated it as follows:

I have refused. You know, I had many reasons both in that, and in other side. Therefore I was deciding so long . If to speak absolutely shortly, then the main reason is disagreement with organized mathematical community. I don’t like their decisions, I consider them unfair. I consider that the contribution to the solution of this task of the American mathematician Hamilton isn’t less at all, than mine!

Is that madness? Or, may be madness is our way of thinking? If he like other great personalities soared up over the material world,  isn’t he more powerful than everyone?

And what you’re thinking about it?